July 2018

I feel so alive and happy when I am with my girl. She is the reason why I choose to stay happy and love. She is the reason why I want to become better and to take the right path. She is an inspiration to me, the love of my life, and my ultimate happiness. Well, I believe now, that love brings joy to the presence of people. It gives us this kind energy that no matter how tired we are, we’re not going to lose control and give up. It makes us brave to face all the lives challenges in life. Whenever we feel sad, we have our partner for us. Our loneliness replaces with joy. We are not afraid anymore to trust, and in love again, the right partner will prove to us that it is okay to give another try. They will never be the same person we have before. A love that is always worth the risks. When we are in love, it feels like everything seems right and the world is on our favor. When we are in love, it feels like heaven and floating with love and happiness.

 

I promise myself that after a painful break-up I have been through, I won’t love again. I am done and tired by giving all my best and still took for granted. That feeling that you thought you are the only one, and her forever. That feeling that you already plan your future, but she ruins it. And it just sucks. It is painful because I have to be strong in front of her, acting like I wasn’t hurt but deep inside it was killing me and want to punch anyone else. I have been in a seven years relationship before, and I trusted her so much. We dream together and slowly aim it. I am proud of her, and her achievements in life. She is famous in social media because of her beauty.

 

She is an ideal woman, and feel lucky to have her all that time. I gave her everything as I can, I know it is too much, but she is my love and wants to make her happy. I assume in our love so much that when it ends, it’s like my world shuts down. I caught her kissing another man, and little did I know, they are together for a long time. She told me everything and desperately break up with me. I don’t know what to do; I feel so sad and lonely. I hate going out, and isolate myself at home. I can’t handle the pain. I travel to London and stay in Basildon. I have been here for years now, got to know a Basildon escort from https://charlotteaction.org/basildon-escorts. She is beautiful and kind. She is different from my ex-girlfriend. And whenever I am with her, I feel comfortable and secure. A Basildon Escorts bring happiness to my life

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One of the hardest moment in my life is fighting my own battles. It is tough when no one could help you. Every day you have to strive hard for your survival. Many difficulties come into my life, fail of the family and love life. I have no one to hold on, even my family decline to offer some help. It pains me when I have to go through all this crap, I am tired and want to surrender. I have attempt suicide many times, but I don’t understand why I keep surviving. If God allows me to be alive, why he keeps giving me such difficulties I cannot handle. And this is too much for me, got to see many people in my age enjoying their teen’s life, going to school and partying. According to Guilford escorts of https://charlotteaction.org/guilford-escorts.

They are fortunate to have a comfortable experience, sometimes I barely blame God for being born in this world and suffer like this. I want to scream and shout; even I did that no one will hear me and would take the time to comfort me. I am such a failure, trash, and useless man. When I recall my experiences, it burdened me and felt depressed, I was an illegitimate child and been maltreated by my mother’s family. All my life, I never felt being love aside from my mother. She is the only one who can understand me in times of loneliness. My siblings won’t accept me, especially my stepdad, he hated me so much and sometimes blame mom. He always screams and beat my mother, after I was born. He was a violent man to her, he does no job, and my mother has to work for all of us. My siblings go to school, and I was the only one who does not since my father won’t allow me. So, I have chosen to help mom; I noticed her constant a cough and headache.

Sometimes she collapses and rushes to the doctor. We found out that she has cancer and after six months of admission she died, my life becomes worsen after her death; I am physically and mentally abuse. I have run away to our home, and get a life on the street. Loving couple was adopting me. They have raised me and sent me to school. I have finished my college and went to Guilford for vacation. I have known a Guilford Escorts, and she is the best thing that happened to me. She is a high-class lady with a sweetheart. She is very confident in life, and I am Grateful for a Guilford Escorts to come in my life. And my life complete because of her.

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It is okay because I don’t spend a fortune on stuff but I do end up with a lot of stuff. As I only own a small two bedroom apartment, it is beginning to cause a problem. I have so much stuff that I don’t know what to do with it all. One of the girls that I work with Bellingham escorts of https://charlotteaction.org/bellingham-escorts, say that decluttering would make me feel a lot happier, but I am not sure about. We do all live in smaller spaces these days, but yet many of us have the same hobbies that we used to have some time back. I have my collection of all things quirky, and of the girls at Bellingham escorts, has got a collection of sex toys. Could it be that we are driven to collect things. I am very much beginning to think that we are driven to collect things and given it up that addiction comes hard to a lot of people. But yes, my apartment is really overcrowded and I don’t know what to do. I have a friend at Bellingham escorts who is really into doing car boot sales in her spare time, she has offered me to come with her to sell some of my stuff. The only problem is that I feel so emotionally attached to all of my stuff that I think that I would have a really hard time to let go. I wish I could declutter, and sell some of the stuff, but it is a matter of wanting to. At the moment, I am pretty sure that I do not want to sell any of my stuff. The other girls at Bellingham escorts don’t think that I am weird or anything like that, they just think that I have too much stuff. If I got rid of a lot of this stuff, I would be able to put some money in my bank account. Not that I am poor or anything like that, but it would be good to have some extra money to spend. Or rather, it wold be good to have some extra money saved up. I love working for Bellingham escorts and I am really fascinated that we are all so different. Some of the girls are all into shopping for nice clothes and I like all of my quirky stuff. I am sure that I would not change even if I sold all of the stuff. The only thing that would happen, would be that I would feel that I would have to put something else in its place. If I could overcome that feeling, I think that I would actually sell off a lot of the stuff and put some money in the bank. But as it is, I am rather in love with all of the stuff that I have got here. Parting with it would be really hard. …